Early Morning ramble, take 1

So here I sit coffee in hand... since 6am...

Here I sit 11 days from graduating (hopefully)... a dream I've been chasing since 1998... we'll skip the math on that, thanks. A lot has happened in all that time. False starts, false hopes, false loves, triumphs and falls.

I've changed a lot through all of it and all of it has shaped me into this now. Dare I say it, this is "grand design" at work- an evolution of a starry-eyed girl in to a Warrior Woman with heart of semi-precious gold. ...and a brain equal to a really smart gutter... I've learned to look at the humor in every situation. And, if you didn't know that by now, you probably just started reading my blog. Welcome, please read back for homework. I have an uncanny wisdom about people grown from all my years of working with them. And I'm very rarely wrong. I am honest when I need to be but I can also scheme with the best of them. Patience has sprung up over time, it's not always there but I've learned to be WAY more patient than I started out.

I've learned to trust myself. Now that was a hard lesson learned by many scarring battles that I will NOT go in to. Part of that evolved into my writing today. I write what I write, how I write, and I stay true to it. I stand by it, period. If you don't like what I write, you can turn your happy ass around and look at a different book. There are so many "writers" in the self-pub and publishing house worlds that I don't feel I have to compromise my style to match anything. And I hate genres, they're a necessary evil but I hate them. It is what it is. And even if only ten people in the world love my books... that's enough for me. Gee, I guess I've learned to see successes as successes too.

But...one thing has remained steadfast about me... *stares at coffee cup* Okay, a few things.
1. I can not be parted from my coffee. I still love the stuff, I still wish I could get it in a syringe and I still abso must have it to start my day. I can't drink pop so coffee is my only approved caffeine delivery system.
2. It ties in to number 1 there, but I am definitely NOT a morning person. I can fake it and get through, but if it was up to me I'd be in bed around 2am and up around 11am. I do my best work on anything at night. I loved working third shift for that reason.

Little known trivia facts. All of my first book, hell NOVEL (it's almost 500 pages) was written on third shift and I wrote/edited it in 6 months. My second novel was written primarily on third shift and took a little longer. This last novel that is driving me bonkers to finish... no third shifts... see a pattern. I do. When I graduate, guess what I'm doing.... Uh-huh, reverting back to being a night owl so I can finish that novel.

Well, look at the time. I have to get dressed and haul my happy ass off to my last Associate degree class lecture day. Then finals next week... all of summer off school and start the Bachelor's in the Fall. What, I heard someone curse the affect on my writing... it won't. I only need 11 courses to finish the Bachelor's and they're all online. Sweet. Writing is still a go.

Here's hoping you get the chance to learn so much about yourself too. It's the best journey in life, truly, the journey to self discovery. Now before I start sounding like a new age whack-job....and bet your ass I'm blaming the not being a morning person for that...

Peace Out
Jennifer